Still here

Nothing to add at this point.  Still rolling 

I'm still here

So the steak lives on.  Legs and body are a bit fried.  But that's a good thing.   Nutrition is on track and alcohol is leaving the system.  

Day 3

So the steak lives on.  Nothing really new to add today.  Trying to come up with some lists of things that make me happy, stressed etc.   And then see if I can work through some of them.  

Streak

So I'm  not sure you call it a steak at two days but it is a starting point.   Read a blog somewhere and the thought  that stuck went something like "the odds of a workout tomorrow are 50:50". Well I'll take that as my percentages have been much worse.  I have exercised much more consistently since the move.  But still not ideal.  Waiting on the pool for awhile until a habit is formed.  Somewhere else I read that that takes 45+ days.  Not quite one percent on my way.  Haha.  

I have been a bit of a mess.  Not sure what I have been expecting out of life.  There are no free lunches. And I'm not entitled to happily ever after. So maybe I will just have to work towards that myself. The only thing that can hold me back is myself.   I choose happiness as a way of life and will work at that. Think I need to get out  of my head about and live.

Worrying won't accomplish anything.  And. As someone smarter than me acknowledged about themselves "I overestimate my ability to impact external situations. 

192 today down from 195. So my plan of going from 185 to 175  didn't turn out the way I had it planned.  

Treadmill

So we got a new treadmill. Our old one would shock you if you didn't ground yourself to it.  It just didn't seem worth moving it across country.   Should have done better due diligence.  Was hoping to have a heart rate control on it and I guess it does but it only adjusts the incline.   Basically worthless feature.   Anyway.  It will start getting some use once it cools off.  Too hot inside for now.   At this point I will walk while watching tv.